My song!

weneva i felt low i wud listen to Joey Mc InTyre's Stay da same song n wud find myself high again. dis song was kind of a music to my soul (cliche as it may sound)! every adolescent stage dat people pass thru i went thru da same ting. i was rebellious, answered back my folks, put up da stereo volume enuf to damage one's eardrum.......... m sure some of the kids may haf been the perfect 1s, neva to raise voice against their parents. dose adolescent days!!ha ha ha!

wen i luk back at dose days i found it pretty silly to brood ova tings dat weren't as bad as it seemed dose days. i loved writing diaries, i still do. but wen i found dat my cousin brother read my diaries i felt really bad n i cried da whole day. ofcourse he doesnt know dat i knw. i came to knw only wen my aunt told me n she dnt realize dat it wud turn out to b a big issue.she gt scared but i dnt blame her. i ws more mad at my cousin bro. nyhow i've forgotten da whole issue. i ve moved on.
the funny part was dat i found it therapeutical to write it in my blog bout my thots n stuffs dat i wanted to write weneva da moment striked me so dat wen people go thru my blog dey go down to dat same lane n if dey r inspired enuf(wich m sure wud b rare) wud write to me or leave comments. i thank sum of my frens who had written me on my mail regardin da blog.

well dis is da song dat i really liked n every1 mite know da lyrics but nyhow if ur down or feel bad bout urself n u sumhow stumble upon dis lyrics wen u read my blog m sure it'l mak u feel nice again n accept s u r.

JOEY MCINTYRE LYRICS

"Stay The Same"

[Chorus]
Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,
cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.

[Verse]
I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.

[Chorus]

The Godfather, Mario Puzo.

jus finished reading godfather by mario puzi. i bought it 4 my youngest bro cos he wanted to read it n i'll b sendin dat bk home. i thot i jus flip thru as to why its such a popular 1. afta reading it dere was no doubt on my mind dat it was one of the best buk i ever read. i was addicted to it. i dnt wana sleep also(mayb i exaggerated a bit dis time cos i love sleepin but im jus implyin dat da buk was an enuf reason for me to wake up n read wich my text buks failed to evn durin exam times lol!).
it was kinda sad wen da story ended but m waitin for the second buk "the Godfather Returns." m nt sure how others wud find da buk cos sum of my frens had read it n found it borin. as 4 me i liked it frm the beginnin till da end. was a bit sad doh wen my fav.character sonny died but i liked michael's character at the end. da whole mafia ting is v.thrilling be it a movie or a buk but i tink in real life i wnt wanna deal or cum face to face wid dem!

Having faith!

A person, Jew who survived the concentration camp lived to tell the tale bout him surviving bcos he had faith in God and just da acknowledge of God's existence did it help him in having a hope, a hope dat others had already abandoned. All of us at one point or the other, or for the fact even the atheist who do not belif in da existence of god wud acknowledge dat dere indeed is a supernatural force dat cnt b dismissed easily wich govern da whole universe.

As a person i believe in destiny and i do haf faith in God. But sumtimes wen tings dnt go my way i start questioning da existence of a fair God. Its funny how we always use to say "God i do not deserve da love/blessings u shower upon us" but wen sumtin bad happens we'll b asking "y, god! y me?"

Sumtimes i tink we, christians lead a life dat wud go against da very teachings of the Bible. I had heard of a fren(A) who complained dat dis particular girl(B,a christian)wud invite her(a hindu)to a service and wud b really nice 2 her if she went along wid her but if she(A) doesnt wanna go B wud get mad n not talk to her. Wen i heard dat story i was quite pissed wid B. i mean she was really mean. Den i luked at myself n realized dat evn doh i wasnt doin tings lik dat, in subtle ways i was mean myself (i luv only dose who luv me/care, gettin mad at others for petty reasons n regrettin it later......wnt b goin into much detail).
But then again dere r other people(eg. a christian mother in my colony) who r so genuinely good dat dose people around dem want to experience wat it liks to be a christian. One of da lady bk home was really so impressed by how we go to church every mornin, greet n meet frens, worship 2gether, showin concern to each n evry family by goin to respective houses to pray for each other, helpin in terms of emotional, financial n so on. Dat christian mother whom i knw myself as being v.caring n loving is my frens mom. Evn i haf every1 bk home to testify dat. I wish 2 haf dat quality but its hard.

Also 1 ting dat really bugs me is da accusation dat other people mak on the conversion of da non-christians. Not all christians r like dat, only some. Its all in da choice of da converter n i tink dat whoeva forces other people to change their religion doesnt haf a clue bout the beauty of accepting a religion on their own choice n voluntarily. Every1 has da right to proclaim dere own religion and people haf dat equal right to accept/deny it. All in all i tink dat as long as u haf faith in ur Living God n not destroy a persons life bcos of religion this world wud b a gr8t place!

There mite b flaws in my writings regardin dis topic but dats da way i felt n wanted others to know too. N ofcourse comments r always welcome.

we da students!!

I cum back frm da class tired, haf my lunch, check my mail n den go off to sleep wich is lik a routine nw.

I try to reason myself dat i cum 2 delhi to educate myself, learn bout other people as well as adjust myself wid dem, n if possible try to gt a job here bt wich i knw i wnt b able to stay here for long. Gettin a job bck home is equally tough! My stay out here is sumtimes a struggle. Gettin along wid da teachers n classmates r a struggle too! m nt critisizin dem! Its jus dat we dnt have a say in class and gt less in our internals(i tink internals shud b banned, it doesnt help much).


Sumtimes wenever da teacher addresses me my mind wud b blank n i'll hafta ask da questn again cos either i wud b dozin at dat time or pretending to listen to their teachings while my mind is in a state of bliss:)as i'll b in a wonderland.


Ya m tryin to adjust here. Bin here 4 almost 7 years but i stil haf to much to learn! U go back home once every year n dnt fil lik cumin bk. Bt den again u start missin dis place wen u go bk home. I knw its such an irony! Bt life as we knw it, is ironical! Notin much to b done!! Jus sit back n absorb wateva cums ur way............

I've xperienced hopelessness, anger n dose stuffs dat students usually suffer sumtimes n i've tried to quit also bt den at da end al da work dat we put wudnt b wasted (b it minimal).

clothes dat we wear.

went for service 2day. its really funny how despite da fact dat i go dere to worship n pray wud end up criticizin sum1 dere. wat m tryin to say is dat dere was dis girl who came to da service wearin a skimpy dress. her bra strap cud b seen n wasnt lukin decent. i dnt mean 2 degrade her or dat sort bt i tink dat dere is a dress code for every occasion like goin 4 a party, college, church,etc(also da place where we go). i wnt imply dat its bcos of wat we wear dat most north indians tease us or haf bad impression of us cos evn if we wear decent clothes dey wud still do it. i do gt really mad if da rickshaw pullers or street romeos or 4 dat fact unclejis stare at us n all i can do is either screw up my face or ignore it.
its kinda unfair dat doh girls(not n.e.) wear skimpy clothes dey r nt conceived of in a manner dat wud ve, had it been worn by n.e. girls.dats lik sad. mayb m wrong here bt partly m true! also mayb 1 of da reason dey haf bad impression is dat we dnt try 2 mingle wid da people out here. we r wid our own people so we r quite ignorant of each other's culture n their ways. one of my north indian fren had a different impression of us n dat her seniors told her 2 stay away frm n.e. people. later afta we bcame frens she had shed all da stereotyped attitudes 2wards us. i had shed mine too bout dem. but ya we do haf lotsa differences. i tink one of da main prob is lack of xposure.i guess! i tink dat if we accept every culture as dey r n nt stereotype people it'l be a big step 2wards understandin both da sides n thus nt create problem or animosity 2wards each other.

full house (korean drama)!

have watched dis drama like 4 times but i neva gt tired of it. partly bcos da guy(rain) gets da girl(song hye kyo) and partly cos its realistically funny.

i tink dat unlike other korean(i mean most of dem) movies/dramas where da girl often dies dis, drama offers a kind of fresh story to it. most of da korean movies haf a sad endin to it but at da same time we (esp.n.e. people) r addicted to dis kind of movies. even people back home watch arirang tv (korean channel) where u get 2 watch da movies/dramas n esp.at 7:30pm people stop doin wateva dey r doin n wud watch da soaps (mothers r no exception to it).
its kinda funny wen my mom fell in love wid 1 of the characters frm da drama so much so dat she dreamt bout him also.

i haf 1 korean fren who always advice me not to watch dose stuffs cos its v.much different frm reality. true! but den its kinda fun also to watch, laugh n cry at da end wid frens!

counting my days!

everyday wenever i hear bout deaths i always tink dat its v.far away from me n dat i'l live till da age of 80/90. m sure every1 mite b tinkin dat way! last time i heard dat one of the kids frm our locality suffered frm hepatitis n he died. dat same day i read frm da daily bread book dat we shud live as if our days r numbered. we live here jus once n die. its like a flower dat blooms in da mornin n withers in da evenin.
i dnt wanna sound pessimistic. its jus dat knowin dat ur life is short n precious i wanna live to da fullest n nt brood ova petty things like gettin low grades, fights wid frens........
i dnt knw da artist name bt i remembered da title of da song "to live like ur dying"